Such as Life, I Guess?

I’ve always felt that I am a highly sensitive person. When I perceive that someone has wronged me, I take that shit to the overthinker and over feeling extreme. Today was one of those days.

I woke up this morning to a notification that a brand I had been working with to promote had removed my tag on them on my post. Wow… My anxiety ridden brain went into immediate freakout and overthink mode. “Did I do something wrong?”. “What did I do?” “Was it something I said or a song I used?”. “Are they upset about the different brands I’ve been working with?” I literally cried in my coffee this morning about it.

I know it is so easy to say, “Forget about them”, but I have a really hard time doing this.

When I choose to work with a brand, I’m very loyal to them. I love helping small business grow and instead of picking one thing and staying in that lane, I realized I am way too eclectic to pick and stick to one “thing”. I am into so many different things and am not linear nor plain vanilla, so this rejection rippled through my heart this morning. It stung for a while until I realized something…if a brand is going to be upset at something I did and isn’t going to tell me what I did to upset them, there’s no relationship there and there never was. Ghosting and zero communication is for cowards and I’m not that person. If I fuck up, I’ll own it and make it right. However, if never given the opportunity to literally send me an email or a message taht says, “It hurt me when you…”, I can’t find a solution to the problem that I’m not even aware of. These are not my people.

I appreciate people who are brave, honest and forthcoming.

Today wasn’t a strike out at all, though. It was a lesson. A lesson in who’s real.

There is a different brand who also reached out and said that they couldn’t find more of their brand quality influencer, so they had left a platform. However, they were happy to reactive my code if I still wanted to work with them? Oh, you absolutely bet I do! Because of their honesty and not taking the cowards way out of just ghosting me.

I put a lot of time into being a brand ambassador - time that I won’t get back. I do this to help connect others to cool brands that I’m into, so maybe you’ll be into them too?I am just happy to know that there are still genuine people in the world, and they can appear in what some would call the least likely of places. They are my kind of people and brands I will continue to support.

Be good to each other because you never know what someone else may be going through.