Being an Accidental Car Door Slammer was Not Expected

I’ve had a very long time to think about a lot of things, as I’m sure most of you have also done. We’ve spent the past year on on a “traumatic rollercoaster” and I’m stepping off the crazy thing.

Last August, I started back to working a full time job as a content creator. I couldn’t be more grateful as I love my job and the company I work for. That was a huge positive for me and our entire family, considering so many people had lost their job during the pandemic.

School started back up and I was determined not to let my son’s online learning get the best of me like it did last year. We smashed that goal, too, as I found a way to make it work for us. I morph into a 3rd grade teacher during my lunchbreak and after work and we just get everything done. It’s not nearly as crazy for us this school year as it felt last year, even though he has a lot more work.

We made it through what felt like the longest winter on record. I never want to see snow again.

In February, my entire household got COVID. My husband was hospitalized and almost didn’t survive. It really made me focus on what really matters in life. I am grateful for the lesson and honor it by living day by day now.

I spend a lot of time just being still and listening to the world around me. In the silence, I find myself not feeling overwhelmed with life. I’ve stopped paying attention to things that really don’t matter and have unfollowed a lot of things that I just don’t have the energy for. I am learning to be at peace with myself and the world around me by walking away.

I enjoy the little things like watching the clouds drift by, keeping an ear out for the neighborhood woodpecker, laughing at something funny that one of my kids told me. When was the last time you really did something like this? Life is for living and I’m all in with those I love and care about.

I realized I got to this dreaded point by constantly being sad, angry and at war with myself. It took this undoing and letting go to finally find the motivation to just be who I am truly meant to be - a writer, an accidental car door slammer, a wife and mom and so much more that is simply perfectly imperfect about me.

So, here I am with learning something new about myself that I wasn’t even aware I had within me - being an accidental car door slammer. My point is, spend some time to learn something new about yourself. It’s good for the soul (not the car door, apparently) and you just might find some humor in it either way.